I know you heard the people say
that you couldn't make it any way you tried
Maybe we dream the same dream
but have a different kind of laws
That don't mean that we won't get there together
It's alright to feel what you've been feeling
Say what you've been saying
Think what you've been thinking alright
You're just the same old crazy kind of song
Left to right these private eyes
I just refuse to flaunt the old disguise
Ain't it strange sometimes we search to find what matters in our lives
It takes awhile to live a lie, but that doesn't make it
true or false or anything
It's just a line to make you want to do things
So sing a loud
Cause I beleive that you and me we want the same thing deep inside
So I'm just telling everybody
It's alright to feel what you've been feeling
Say what you've been saying
Think what you've been thinking alright
You're just the same old crazy kind of song
Somewhere to the left of nothing alright
Do your feel it say it
Think what youve been thinking alright
You're just the same old crazy kind of song
Some one to the left of some thing weird
You've been waiting for a sign but its been there all the time
Let me taste your soul and lift your eyes
It's alright...it's alright
Gotta feel good
Gotta feel nice
It makes a world of difference when you open up your eyes
But yes I've seen every sight
and theres a million smiling faces saying it's alright
well it's alright
Blessid Union Of Souls - It's Alright
Things are amazing. Life is good. And I can't wait for what tommorrow brings.
You can't take me down because you'll never reach the place I'm at.
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
To everyone who's having a rough time lately:
When the road gets dark
and you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spike
And have a little faith in me
When the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try baby
And have a little faith in me
When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here darlin'
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me
And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you will see
I will catch, I will catch your fall baby
Just have a little faith in me
Love you all, and hope you face today with your head raised high.
When the road gets dark
and you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spike
And have a little faith in me
When the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try baby
And have a little faith in me
When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here darlin'
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me
And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you will see
I will catch, I will catch your fall baby
Just have a little faith in me
Love you all, and hope you face today with your head raised high.
Monday, March 29, 2004
Had a really disturbing dream this morning, that was all had in the space of 20 minutes, but was one of the most vivid ones I've ever had. I was sitting in our kitchen at home in New Jersey, and all of a sudden I see a helicopter and three men rappeling down to the ground. There is some huge box attached to a cable, and once they hit the ground they keep jumping up trying to help steer it to the ground on the huge cable it's attached to. They finally do, and they remove some vehicle from it, and all jump on board. About this time large trucks, huge tanks that look like ATVs or sandcrawlers start tearing across my backyard. They're taller than 3-4 storied buildings, and plow over the edge of my forest and into it. Suddenly there are vehicles everywhere, soldiers running. What looks like a mobile missile launcher drives by, and I hear gunfire in the distance. Soon rockets are firing in the air, and bullets are flying everywhere, richocheting off of walls. My parents and I run outside into an abandoned truck and begin to drive. Complete and utter pandemonium everywhere. Children are crying for their parents, covered in mud, soot, and ash. Bombs are dropping, and the neighborhood looks nothing like it had minutes earlier. We stop to pick up a young boy and girl, who apparently we know, and continue on. We top the rise of a hill, and all I can see is legions of soldiers marching as rockets fly into the air. The sky is blood red, and the sun is a dull glow in the afternoon sky. That's when I woke up. Quite a dream, and I don't know what to make of it. I don't think until that moment I ever really thought about what it would be like to fight a war on home soil.
Oh well. Time to get back to the massive amounts of work I've got this week. I feel like I want to break something. Bad. Now. :(
Oh well. Time to get back to the massive amounts of work I've got this week. I feel like I want to break something. Bad. Now. :(
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Time for a weekend UPDATE!
This was such a LONG LONG week, and now that it's over in retrospect it was pretty awesome. Let's start back to the beginning of the week shall we? So things were going horrible on Monday. We had had numerous party meetings which 2 of the 3 party coordinators habitually missed. We had no definite DJs, no definite band, and no invites. Monday night we get invites, still working on DJs. Another party meeting on Tuesday, not very productive. I step up as a co-party-coordinator and Asa and I had lunch a few times to discuss what needed to be done every day this week. So we get upto Wednesday and we we have a band, but they don't have a PA...or microphones. Next day we've still got no DJs, and no PA. Friday is the same deal and we're freaking out. Now I was going to have 4 friends up this weekend, but one by one they all bailed on me until FRIDAY I get a call from Matt and he says he's on his way up with Alaina. Yay woohoo fun! So after being at work a total of 3 hours out of the 8 I was scheduled, I hit up happy hour down on Marshall St. Good Happy Hour, good times, good friends, and a chance to relax after the hellish week of work, class, projects, presentations, and general stress.
So Zach, Bekkah and I go back to the house to chill, and I get a call from Matt. "Bad news." His transmission blew out 25 miles from 'Cuse. So at 10 o'clock I drive on out to Cortland to pick him and Alaina up. Now Friday was GORGEOUS...the weather has been getting consistently better every day. Well after an awesome Friday it's pouring. So out 30 mins there and back to pick them up, and then back to the house where it's mostly uneventful since there were no parties going on and it was raining llamas and emus outside. Went to bed still wondering if we'd have DJs or a PA or anything else set up for Saturday's party. This had to be the most difficult party I've ever had to coordinate or take part in. Usually our parties work as so: My house has 14-16 people in it every semester, and we all put in $40 for a party collection. We 99% of the time get this money back, and usually everyone is halfway decent in getting their money in. But this time it was like pulling teeth. Two of our house members skipped out this weekend and just up and disappeared which left us initially -$80. Then another housemate couldn't pay her $40. Then another initially only put in $14. Now since we no longer can get kegs in NY state without someone having to register their license along with them and paying a hefty increased deposit, we opted to go the route of cans. We used to get 6 kegs, which the equivalent is about 40 cases. So this party after much toil involving recycling cans, hounding people who hadn't paid, Andrew and I putting in $100 out of our own pockets, and renting a PA we were able to have our 80s/90s Dance Party. It went off well. Slow at first but picked up quick and a sizable crowd showed up in the end. I had a ton of fun so it was worth it, but all day Saturday when I was out since 10am until about 7pm was complete utter hell. We ended up having 3 DJs, renting the PA (which I had to pick up and drop off), getting 40 cases of beer (because of the extra $ Andrew and I doled out), and having a college hip-hop group called Higher Ground play the party. Everyone had fun, and today only helped.
Today was the most beautiful day we've had yet this spring in Syracuse. It was about 70 degrees all day long, and we basically just hung out on our porch all day long. We hit up Cosmo's for breakfast this morning, and started cleaning up the house when we got back. I took Matt and Alaina to the airport so he could get a rental car to drive back to NJ, but he couldn't get one so one of Alaina's friends ended up coming up here to pick them up and take em back. Overall it was a pretty great weekend, and I hope I can make it through the wall of work I've got to do this week. I'm going to go get on it right now :L
New pics up!
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This was such a LONG LONG week, and now that it's over in retrospect it was pretty awesome. Let's start back to the beginning of the week shall we? So things were going horrible on Monday. We had had numerous party meetings which 2 of the 3 party coordinators habitually missed. We had no definite DJs, no definite band, and no invites. Monday night we get invites, still working on DJs. Another party meeting on Tuesday, not very productive. I step up as a co-party-coordinator and Asa and I had lunch a few times to discuss what needed to be done every day this week. So we get upto Wednesday and we we have a band, but they don't have a PA...or microphones. Next day we've still got no DJs, and no PA. Friday is the same deal and we're freaking out. Now I was going to have 4 friends up this weekend, but one by one they all bailed on me until FRIDAY I get a call from Matt and he says he's on his way up with Alaina. Yay woohoo fun! So after being at work a total of 3 hours out of the 8 I was scheduled, I hit up happy hour down on Marshall St. Good Happy Hour, good times, good friends, and a chance to relax after the hellish week of work, class, projects, presentations, and general stress.
So Zach, Bekkah and I go back to the house to chill, and I get a call from Matt. "Bad news." His transmission blew out 25 miles from 'Cuse. So at 10 o'clock I drive on out to Cortland to pick him and Alaina up. Now Friday was GORGEOUS...the weather has been getting consistently better every day. Well after an awesome Friday it's pouring. So out 30 mins there and back to pick them up, and then back to the house where it's mostly uneventful since there were no parties going on and it was raining llamas and emus outside. Went to bed still wondering if we'd have DJs or a PA or anything else set up for Saturday's party. This had to be the most difficult party I've ever had to coordinate or take part in. Usually our parties work as so: My house has 14-16 people in it every semester, and we all put in $40 for a party collection. We 99% of the time get this money back, and usually everyone is halfway decent in getting their money in. But this time it was like pulling teeth. Two of our house members skipped out this weekend and just up and disappeared which left us initially -$80. Then another housemate couldn't pay her $40. Then another initially only put in $14. Now since we no longer can get kegs in NY state without someone having to register their license along with them and paying a hefty increased deposit, we opted to go the route of cans. We used to get 6 kegs, which the equivalent is about 40 cases. So this party after much toil involving recycling cans, hounding people who hadn't paid, Andrew and I putting in $100 out of our own pockets, and renting a PA we were able to have our 80s/90s Dance Party. It went off well. Slow at first but picked up quick and a sizable crowd showed up in the end. I had a ton of fun so it was worth it, but all day Saturday when I was out since 10am until about 7pm was complete utter hell. We ended up having 3 DJs, renting the PA (which I had to pick up and drop off), getting 40 cases of beer (because of the extra $ Andrew and I doled out), and having a college hip-hop group called Higher Ground play the party. Everyone had fun, and today only helped.
Today was the most beautiful day we've had yet this spring in Syracuse. It was about 70 degrees all day long, and we basically just hung out on our porch all day long. We hit up Cosmo's for breakfast this morning, and started cleaning up the house when we got back. I took Matt and Alaina to the airport so he could get a rental car to drive back to NJ, but he couldn't get one so one of Alaina's friends ended up coming up here to pick them up and take em back. Overall it was a pretty great weekend, and I hope I can make it through the wall of work I've got to do this week. I'm going to go get on it right now :L
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Tuesday, March 23, 2004
A very busy week so far.
Too much to do before Saturday's party.
Too much snow.
Too much going on.
Too much on my mind.
And many friends hurting.
And too little I can do about it.
Maybe it would be fun
To get a new opinion
Get a little work done
And forget
Maybe it would be cool
If I rocked it old school
Try to break a gold rule
And a sweat
Better than the first time
Better than the worst time
If I could just reverse time
I'd be set
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
She got a new apartment
It's out on the escarpment
And in her glove compartment
Are my songs
She hasn't even heard them
Since she found out what the words meant
She decided she preferred them
All wrong
Kind of like the last time
With a bunch of really fast times
If we're living in the past time
Soon gone
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
We recognize the present
Is half as pleasant
As our nostalgia for
The past'll be presented
Recast and reinvented
Until it's how we meant it
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
He's everything that you need
You wiped out on your ten speed
And either he will succeed
Or just suck
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
Begin the...
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
Would I be in the clear, G?
Testing 1,2,3...
Barenaked Ladies - Testing 1,2,3
[ Tue Mar 23, 04:37:51 PM | Peter Palumbo | edit ]
A very busy week so far.
Too much to do before Saturday's party.
Too much snow.
Too much going on.
Too much on my mind.
And many friends hurting.
And too little I can do about it.
Maybe it would be fun
To get a new opinion
Get a little work done
And forget
Maybe it would be cool
If I rocked it old school
Try to break a gold rule
And a sweat
Better than the first time
Better than the worst time
If I could just reverse time
I'd be set
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
She got a new apartment
It's out on the escarpment
And in her glove compartment
Are my songs
She hasn't even heard them
Since she found out what the words meant
She decided she preferred them
All wrong
Kind of like the last time
With a bunch of really fast times
If we're living in the past time
Soon gone
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
We recognize the present
Is half as pleasant
As our nostalgia for
The past'll be presented
Recast and reinvented
Until it's how we meant it
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
He's everything that you need
You wiped out on your ten speed
And either he will succeed
Or just suck
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
Begin the...
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
Would I be in the clear, G?
Testing 1,2,3...
Barenaked Ladies - Testing 1,2,3
Too much to do before Saturday's party.
Too much snow.
Too much going on.
Too much on my mind.
And many friends hurting.
And too little I can do about it.
Maybe it would be fun
To get a new opinion
Get a little work done
And forget
Maybe it would be cool
If I rocked it old school
Try to break a gold rule
And a sweat
Better than the first time
Better than the worst time
If I could just reverse time
I'd be set
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
She got a new apartment
It's out on the escarpment
And in her glove compartment
Are my songs
She hasn't even heard them
Since she found out what the words meant
She decided she preferred them
All wrong
Kind of like the last time
With a bunch of really fast times
If we're living in the past time
Soon gone
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
We recognize the present
Is half as pleasant
As our nostalgia for
The past'll be presented
Recast and reinvented
Until it's how we meant it
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
He's everything that you need
You wiped out on your ten speed
And either he will succeed
Or just suck
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
Begin the...
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
Would I be in the clear, G?
Testing 1,2,3...
Barenaked Ladies - Testing 1,2,3
[ Tue Mar 23, 04:37:51 PM | Peter Palumbo | edit ]
A very busy week so far.
Too much to do before Saturday's party.
Too much snow.
Too much going on.
Too much on my mind.
And many friends hurting.
And too little I can do about it.
Maybe it would be fun
To get a new opinion
Get a little work done
And forget
Maybe it would be cool
If I rocked it old school
Try to break a gold rule
And a sweat
Better than the first time
Better than the worst time
If I could just reverse time
I'd be set
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
She got a new apartment
It's out on the escarpment
And in her glove compartment
Are my songs
She hasn't even heard them
Since she found out what the words meant
She decided she preferred them
All wrong
Kind of like the last time
With a bunch of really fast times
If we're living in the past time
Soon gone
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
We recognize the present
Is half as pleasant
As our nostalgia for
The past'll be presented
Recast and reinvented
Until it's how we meant it
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
He's everything that you need
You wiped out on your ten speed
And either he will succeed
Or just suck
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
Begin the...
Testing 1,2,3
Can anybody hear me?
If I shed the irony
Would anybody cheer me?
If I acted less like me
Would I be in the clear?
Would I be in the clear, G?
Testing 1,2,3...
Barenaked Ladies - Testing 1,2,3
Sunday, March 21, 2004
Wow what a good weekend. Major DDR on Friday night after the bars, and lots of old housemates came to chill at the house. Saturday was our open house, and I got to see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Amazing movie. I think it makes me really value all the crystal clear memories I have much more now. I could never imagine erasing someone from my memory no matter how much it hurt. Sometimes all you have left are the good memories... Really good movie so go see it if you can. Jim Carrey in one of his best roles yet. Hit up the downtown scene last night, very very interesting lol.
It's been surprisingly mild here in Syracuse lately. Saw the moon last night and some stars I haven't seen in a long time. Whenever I get to see the moon I always look up-there's a few people who know that whenever it's out and I can see it, I'll look up at it and think of them, and I hope they still doing the same. Distance seperates lots of us, but you're always in my thoughts...
A busy week coming up, but then our 80s/90s dance party this Saturday! Woooo! Friends coming up, and good times on the way. Under 50 days someone said the other day until graduation. This is going to go really fast. Take a snapshot of this moment of me writing this on a Sunday morning, still an undergrad in his senior year final semester. But now that snapshop is taken and life keeps moving on. Tons of work to do, and it's time to do it. Work now will mean partying later lol.
It's been surprisingly mild here in Syracuse lately. Saw the moon last night and some stars I haven't seen in a long time. Whenever I get to see the moon I always look up-there's a few people who know that whenever it's out and I can see it, I'll look up at it and think of them, and I hope they still doing the same. Distance seperates lots of us, but you're always in my thoughts...
A busy week coming up, but then our 80s/90s dance party this Saturday! Woooo! Friends coming up, and good times on the way. Under 50 days someone said the other day until graduation. This is going to go really fast. Take a snapshot of this moment of me writing this on a Sunday morning, still an undergrad in his senior year final semester. But now that snapshop is taken and life keeps moving on. Tons of work to do, and it's time to do it. Work now will mean partying later lol.
Friday, March 19, 2004
It's Friday, yet again! This week FLEW by...Time for an uplifting song so get me through the work day :) Hope you're all putting your nose to the grindstone as we wind down these last few weeks of school. I miss my Bridgewater friends and I can't wait to see you guys. You know who you are. The world isn't ready for us, but we'll take it by storm anyway :)
Rent - Another Day
Who do you think you are?
Barging in on me and my guitar
Little girl, hey, the door is that way
You better go you know
the fire's out anyway
Take your powder
Take your candle
Your sweet whisper
I just can't handle
Well take your hair in the Moonlight
Your brown eyes - Goodbye, Goodnight
I should tell you I should tell you
I should tell you I should --No!
Another time, another place
Our temperature would climb
There'd be a long embrace
We'd do another dance
It'd be another play
Looking for romance
Come back another day
Another day
The heart may Freeze - Or it can Burn
The pain will ease - If I can learn
There is no Future
There is no Past
I live this moment as my last
There's only Us
There's only This
Forgret regret
Or Life is yours to miss
No other Road
No other Way
No Day But Today
Excuse me if I'm off track
But if you're so wise
Then tell me - why do you need smack?
Take your needle
Take your fancy prayer
Don't forget get the Moonlight out of your hair
Long ago you might've lit up my heart
But the fire's dead
and ain't never ever gonna start
Another time
Another place
The words would only rhyme
We'd be in outer space
It'd be another song
We'd sing another way
You wanna prove me wrong
Come back Another Day
Another day!
There's only Yes
Only Tonight
We must let go
To know what's right
No other Course
No other Way
No Day But Today
I can't control (Control your temper!)
My Destiny (She doesn't see...)
I trust my Soul (Who says that there's a soul?)
My only goal
Is just - to Be (Just let me be!)
There's only now (Who do you think you are?)
There's only here
Give in to love (Barging in on me and my guitar?)
Or live in Fear
No other Path (Little girl, hey)
No other Way (The door is that way)
No Day But Today (The Fire's out anyway)
No Day But Today (Take your powder, take your candle!)
No Day But Today (Take your brown eyes, your pretty smile, your silhouette)
No Day But Today (Another Time, Another Place, Another Rhyme, a Warm Embrace)
No Day But Today (Another Dance, Another Way, Another Chance)
No Day But Today (Another Day)
Rent - Another Day
Who do you think you are?
Barging in on me and my guitar
Little girl, hey, the door is that way
You better go you know
the fire's out anyway
Take your powder
Take your candle
Your sweet whisper
I just can't handle
Well take your hair in the Moonlight
Your brown eyes - Goodbye, Goodnight
I should tell you I should tell you
I should tell you I should --No!
Another time, another place
Our temperature would climb
There'd be a long embrace
We'd do another dance
It'd be another play
Looking for romance
Come back another day
Another day
The heart may Freeze - Or it can Burn
The pain will ease - If I can learn
There is no Future
There is no Past
I live this moment as my last
There's only Us
There's only This
Forgret regret
Or Life is yours to miss
No other Road
No other Way
No Day But Today
Excuse me if I'm off track
But if you're so wise
Then tell me - why do you need smack?
Take your needle
Take your fancy prayer
Don't forget get the Moonlight out of your hair
Long ago you might've lit up my heart
But the fire's dead
and ain't never ever gonna start
Another time
Another place
The words would only rhyme
We'd be in outer space
It'd be another song
We'd sing another way
You wanna prove me wrong
Come back Another Day
Another day!
There's only Yes
Only Tonight
We must let go
To know what's right
No other Course
No other Way
No Day But Today
I can't control (Control your temper!)
My Destiny (She doesn't see...)
I trust my Soul (Who says that there's a soul?)
My only goal
Is just - to Be (Just let me be!)
There's only now (Who do you think you are?)
There's only here
Give in to love (Barging in on me and my guitar?)
Or live in Fear
No other Path (Little girl, hey)
No other Way (The door is that way)
No Day But Today (The Fire's out anyway)
No Day But Today (Take your powder, take your candle!)
No Day But Today (Take your brown eyes, your pretty smile, your silhouette)
No Day But Today (Another Time, Another Place, Another Rhyme, a Warm Embrace)
No Day But Today (Another Dance, Another Way, Another Chance)
No Day But Today (Another Day)
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
You've been lying in bed for a week now
Wondering how long it'll take
You haven't spoken or looked at her in all that time
For that was the easiest line you could break
She's been going round her business as usual
Always with that melancholic smile
But you were too busy looking into your affairs
To see those tiny tears in her eyes
Tiny tears make up an ocean
Tiny tears make up a sea
Let them pour out, pour out all over
Don't let them pour all over me
How can you hurt someone so much you're supposed to care for
Someone you said you'd always be there for
But when that water breaks you know you're gonna cry, cry
When those tears start rolling you'll be back
Tiny tears make up an ocean
Tiny tears make up a sea
Let them pour out, pour out all over
Don't let them pour all over me
You've been thinking about the time, you've been dreading it
But now it seems that moment has arrived
She's at the edge of the bed, she gets in
But it's hard to turn the opposite way tonight
Tiny tears make up an ocean
Tiny tears make up a sea
Let them pour out, pour out all over
Don't let them pour all over me
The Tindersticks - Tiny Tears
I first heard this song in The Sopranos Season 1 maybe 5 or 6 years ago now. One of my most favorite episodes ever too. They use it when the attempted hit is made on Tony. I don't know why but I find the episode and that part particularly so moving. I see myself in Tony sometimes and vice versa. Maybe because I'm Italian. Maybe because I'm from NJ. Maybe because there's some things in him that are common to us all. I should make a list sometime of movies/shows scenes that movie me like this. Oh well back to work :D
Wondering how long it'll take
You haven't spoken or looked at her in all that time
For that was the easiest line you could break
She's been going round her business as usual
Always with that melancholic smile
But you were too busy looking into your affairs
To see those tiny tears in her eyes
Tiny tears make up an ocean
Tiny tears make up a sea
Let them pour out, pour out all over
Don't let them pour all over me
How can you hurt someone so much you're supposed to care for
Someone you said you'd always be there for
But when that water breaks you know you're gonna cry, cry
When those tears start rolling you'll be back
Tiny tears make up an ocean
Tiny tears make up a sea
Let them pour out, pour out all over
Don't let them pour all over me
You've been thinking about the time, you've been dreading it
But now it seems that moment has arrived
She's at the edge of the bed, she gets in
But it's hard to turn the opposite way tonight
Tiny tears make up an ocean
Tiny tears make up a sea
Let them pour out, pour out all over
Don't let them pour all over me
The Tindersticks - Tiny Tears
I first heard this song in The Sopranos Season 1 maybe 5 or 6 years ago now. One of my most favorite episodes ever too. They use it when the attempted hit is made on Tony. I don't know why but I find the episode and that part particularly so moving. I see myself in Tony sometimes and vice versa. Maybe because I'm Italian. Maybe because I'm from NJ. Maybe because there's some things in him that are common to us all. I should make a list sometime of movies/shows scenes that movie me like this. Oh well back to work :D
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
Well I'm back in 'Cuse. I don't know if I'm happy or not to be. The landscape is dismal. The buildings look sad to me. I'm not motivated whatsoever, and the sun is nowhere to be seen. It's the perfect time of year, somewhere far away from here. Sometimes the last thing you need is the first you get, and the first thing the last. Love...I get so lost sometimes.
When the day is long
And the night, the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go
'Cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts, sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.
'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts.
Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on...
When the day is long
And the night, the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go
'Cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts, sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.
'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts.
Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on...
Monday, March 15, 2004
Well I leave to go back to school this morning... Why is the worst part of spring break always going back to school? Sometimes I wish I could take everything bad for everyone I know, and right it all in one effort. I wish that things would happen for people who truly deserve it. I wish I could do that, but most times it's not upto me.
So it ended up being a great break. I'm sad to go back like after every break there's a bit of my heart tugging in the opposite direction. I'll miss my parents, the new dog, sleeping in, no stress, and seeing the sun every day.
But what I'll miss the most is somone here in Florida. You know who you are. Thanks for being a bright light when all others seemed to have dimmed. We'll meet up again in the future. It's not a matter of if...Only when.
::sigh::
Cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind
And as the day was dawning my plane flew away
With all the things caught in my mind
And I wanna be there when you're...
Coming down
And I wanna be there when you hit the ground
So don't go away, say what you say
But say that you'll stay
Forever and a day...in the time of my life
Cos I need more time, yes I need more time
Just to make things right
-Oasis-
So it ended up being a great break. I'm sad to go back like after every break there's a bit of my heart tugging in the opposite direction. I'll miss my parents, the new dog, sleeping in, no stress, and seeing the sun every day.
But what I'll miss the most is somone here in Florida. You know who you are. Thanks for being a bright light when all others seemed to have dimmed. We'll meet up again in the future. It's not a matter of if...Only when.
::sigh::
Cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind
And as the day was dawning my plane flew away
With all the things caught in my mind
And I wanna be there when you're...
Coming down
And I wanna be there when you hit the ground
So don't go away, say what you say
But say that you'll stay
Forever and a day...in the time of my life
Cos I need more time, yes I need more time
Just to make things right
-Oasis-
Saturday, March 13, 2004
Ok been awhile since I've updated. I'm still down in Florida for Spring Break, and I'm not doing a massive update tonight. I've had a lot on my mind lately, and a lot has happened both physically and mentally and situationally. A lot of thinking gone on this week, a lot of realizations, and a lot to reflect upon when I have more time to do so. Suffice to say I promise you all a good detailed update when I have the time :) Never fear though-this update won't be a 3 sentencer :P
I've been thinking of starting another blog to put up and store all the poetry I've done over the years. I've wanted to have some digital media format of it for some time now. I had some up on Poetry.com but only a few. Actually one of the ones on there got me a big award from the National Poetry Association. I had totally forgotten about a few favorites I'd posted on there. I'll post the link HERE for any of you who are interested. You can just go to Poetry.com and search for the poems under my name-Peter Palumbo. There's 3 I think. "I Stand Alone" was the contest winner. I used to write quite the bit of poetry up until the end of my frosh year of college. Things got too busy then, although there certaintly was plenty of inspiration to write from since. Here's "I Stand Alone" for those of you too lazy to click a hyperlink. You know who you are!
I Stand Alone
If I stand alone
It does now mean
I am any less human.
If my arms do not hold another,
It does not mean
They are incapable of holding.
If my tongue is silent,
It does not mean
That is will be mute
When the time comes
That words can be sincerely spoken
And just because the
world has not yet introduced
The One that will share my life,
It certaintly dos not mean
That I am incapable of
loving.
-Peter James Palumbo-
Anyways expect that blog sometime in the near future. I think I have the few journals I used to write all of them in, and a good deal of them exist in some saved MS Word files when I tried migrating a bunch of my poetry onto some kind of digital format. Cutting and pasting is so easy they should be up in no time. Well tommorrow is a very important day to me, and maybe you'll find out why in that Spring Break post coming soon :)
I've been thinking of starting another blog to put up and store all the poetry I've done over the years. I've wanted to have some digital media format of it for some time now. I had some up on Poetry.com but only a few. Actually one of the ones on there got me a big award from the National Poetry Association. I had totally forgotten about a few favorites I'd posted on there. I'll post the link HERE for any of you who are interested. You can just go to Poetry.com and search for the poems under my name-Peter Palumbo. There's 3 I think. "I Stand Alone" was the contest winner. I used to write quite the bit of poetry up until the end of my frosh year of college. Things got too busy then, although there certaintly was plenty of inspiration to write from since. Here's "I Stand Alone" for those of you too lazy to click a hyperlink. You know who you are!
I Stand Alone
If I stand alone
It does now mean
I am any less human.
If my arms do not hold another,
It does not mean
They are incapable of holding.
If my tongue is silent,
It does not mean
That is will be mute
When the time comes
That words can be sincerely spoken
And just because the
world has not yet introduced
The One that will share my life,
It certaintly dos not mean
That I am incapable of
loving.
-Peter James Palumbo-
Anyways expect that blog sometime in the near future. I think I have the few journals I used to write all of them in, and a good deal of them exist in some saved MS Word files when I tried migrating a bunch of my poetry onto some kind of digital format. Cutting and pasting is so easy they should be up in no time. Well tommorrow is a very important day to me, and maybe you'll find out why in that Spring Break post coming soon :)
Monday, March 01, 2004
Well another awesome weekend. Friday night huge Red House party gathering. Popped in a burned CD of some kickass music and everyone went wild. Had our Red House openhouse on Saturday, and then went off to see the Passion Of the Christ. Amazing. Go see it. Another party Saturday night, lounged around Sunday and relaxed, and chilled out. Now it's onto the harsh week, but the weather has gotten upto 50 degrees! Apparently it's in the 60s in New Jersey! Dad called before and it's in the 80s in Florida. Oh God thank you for small pleasures. Time to get outta work :D
Friday, February 27, 2004
Ah almost forgot...read this article...very interesting. I remember when James Caveizel was struck by lightening and remarking to myself how ironic that was. Finger of God maybe eh?
Well the week of hell looks like it's just about over. I've got about another hour at work and I can go home and get out of my nice clothes. I had my senior picture taken today, and yesterday the presentation was aces. All aces baby. I'm starting to finally feel better again (I had an upper respiratory infection..again 2 weeks after the last), so maybe I won't perpetually be on antibiotics. Friday is here, and Happy Hour is only a few short hours away ;P Hopefully off to a part or 8 tonight, and then the Red House open house tommorrow night. Hopefully we can get a full house for next years housemates. I'd feel bad if we left and they had a lot of open spots. (There will be 11 empty rooms after this semester...10 now since my friend Zach is a definite on moving in.) Then an impromptu at the house party tommorrow night. I have the best time, and all my housemates agree, at our own Red House Parties, or just when we decide to party in one night. Carl's birthday weekend bash was one such night. Turned into a 90s dance party, and we all trudged to Kimmel at the end of the night as a HOUSE. Excellent night, and after one like it there's nothing you can't accomplish. Got my ticket confirmation a few days ago, it's final-I'll be in Florida exactly a week from today...even timewise! Woohoo YEAH! I can almost feel the warm 60s already lol. Also I might get to meet someone while I'm there who I've known for 3 years, but haven't ever met. I can't begin to say how excited I am about that. This might turn out to be an amazing Spring Break after all. Ride the highs, paddle like hell during the lows.
Going to see Passion Of the Christ tommorrow night with Zach and Bekkah. Hopefully Jay and Meg will tag along. I really am excited for this movie. Return of the King moved me in a way most movies don't. I get excited for some movies for the action, or for the story lines etc, even actors (ie Tom Hanks new movie this March!), but Return Of the King moved me much more deeply because of my connection with the book, JRR Tolkien, and most importantly its religious connections to Catholicism and Christianity. CS Lewis and JRR Tolkien both were Christians. Atheists actually, and in their search for Truth, they became believers. Tolkien actually brought Lewis back to his faith. The LOtR trilogy though moved me even in literary form, and watching the movies literally (no pun intended) took my breath away. There are very few movies that move me so deeply, I can only think of maybe 3 or 4 out of everything I've ever seen. Joe vs. the Volcano, (if you know me well or have had any discussion about it before, you'll know why), The Green Mile, and Short Circuit 2. There's specific reasons for each. Passion Of the Christ is more than a movie to me; it looks as if Passion will bolster my faith. The most graphic and effective way of getting an experience through to me is through film first, written word second, and orally third. Up until now I can only imagine what Jesus went through, I feel like it's my responsiblity to see it, no matter how horrific to truly understand the sacrifice involved. I have great expectations for Saturday. I'm not going into the theater with popcorn and soda. You shouldn't be eating while Jesus is starving and being tortured lol. I do not think he'd approve! Ok time to get back to the office...
Going to see Passion Of the Christ tommorrow night with Zach and Bekkah. Hopefully Jay and Meg will tag along. I really am excited for this movie. Return of the King moved me in a way most movies don't. I get excited for some movies for the action, or for the story lines etc, even actors (ie Tom Hanks new movie this March!), but Return Of the King moved me much more deeply because of my connection with the book, JRR Tolkien, and most importantly its religious connections to Catholicism and Christianity. CS Lewis and JRR Tolkien both were Christians. Atheists actually, and in their search for Truth, they became believers. Tolkien actually brought Lewis back to his faith. The LOtR trilogy though moved me even in literary form, and watching the movies literally (no pun intended) took my breath away. There are very few movies that move me so deeply, I can only think of maybe 3 or 4 out of everything I've ever seen. Joe vs. the Volcano, (if you know me well or have had any discussion about it before, you'll know why), The Green Mile, and Short Circuit 2. There's specific reasons for each. Passion Of the Christ is more than a movie to me; it looks as if Passion will bolster my faith. The most graphic and effective way of getting an experience through to me is through film first, written word second, and orally third. Up until now I can only imagine what Jesus went through, I feel like it's my responsiblity to see it, no matter how horrific to truly understand the sacrifice involved. I have great expectations for Saturday. I'm not going into the theater with popcorn and soda. You shouldn't be eating while Jesus is starving and being tortured lol. I do not think he'd approve! Ok time to get back to the office...
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
OK some spare time finally. This week is already been to hell, now it's time for the journey back. I'm sick again...what is this 2 weeks ago? ugh... This week holds 2 major presentations, and for the greater of the two, our 4th group member dropped out of the class so the other 2 members and I have to pick up his slack, a day before the presentation. Last weekend was at least fun. Friday night was Happy Hour and some relaxation afterwards. Saturday Amy and Meryl had a party, which I almost ended up not going to, but did! Glad I did, because I had a lot of fun and got to know a few people a lil better. It's strange to meet new people even now in my final semester. Finally booked by tickets down to Fl yesterday, so a week from Friday I'll be in sunny Florida baby. Oh yeahhhh. Get to see my 'rents and the new dog. My brother is going to come down as well, so it will be nice to see everyone.
In other news Oz Season 3 came out yesterday! Went straight out to pick it up last night, but never got to watch it :( Had to meet with my group for that project to resplit up how we're presenting it, and then upon returning home I started to feel lightheaded and really spacey. Flashback to an hour earlier when I took a shot of NyQuil not really thinking about it. Went to bed at like 8:30 and slept straight through till this morning. Oops. Went to Health Services today and thought that I wasn't going to get any meds 'cause I got the chinese doctor who never gives me an antibiotic, rather likes to let things "run their course." I knew I had an upper-respiratory infection, (I've sure had enough of them in my life to know by now), and I thought he was going to just give me Tylenol and throat lozenges, BUT he did give me a weeks worth of Penicillin, if I chose to go that route. Hell yeah. If I waited till next week I'd still be sick by the time I was leaving for Florida, and I remember 2 years ago when I flew congested. I felt like I would DIE. Imagine your head exploding...yeah not fun...so yay antibiotics.
Today is also a big day too. The Passion Of The Christ released today, and unsuprisingly it's been getting rave reviews just like the critics had given weeks before. I cannot wait to see it, although it's going to have to wait until Saturday morning/afternoon at the earliest because the rest of this week needs to be traversed. Friday is my senior photo woohoo, and a bunch of work calls I've been scheduling until then. Life will be easier once Thursday is over... Hope I make it till then.
The Passion of The Christ
In other news Oz Season 3 came out yesterday! Went straight out to pick it up last night, but never got to watch it :( Had to meet with my group for that project to resplit up how we're presenting it, and then upon returning home I started to feel lightheaded and really spacey. Flashback to an hour earlier when I took a shot of NyQuil not really thinking about it. Went to bed at like 8:30 and slept straight through till this morning. Oops. Went to Health Services today and thought that I wasn't going to get any meds 'cause I got the chinese doctor who never gives me an antibiotic, rather likes to let things "run their course." I knew I had an upper-respiratory infection, (I've sure had enough of them in my life to know by now), and I thought he was going to just give me Tylenol and throat lozenges, BUT he did give me a weeks worth of Penicillin, if I chose to go that route. Hell yeah. If I waited till next week I'd still be sick by the time I was leaving for Florida, and I remember 2 years ago when I flew congested. I felt like I would DIE. Imagine your head exploding...yeah not fun...so yay antibiotics.
Today is also a big day too. The Passion Of The Christ released today, and unsuprisingly it's been getting rave reviews just like the critics had given weeks before. I cannot wait to see it, although it's going to have to wait until Saturday morning/afternoon at the earliest because the rest of this week needs to be traversed. Friday is my senior photo woohoo, and a bunch of work calls I've been scheduling until then. Life will be easier once Thursday is over... Hope I make it till then.
The Passion of The Christ
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Finally it's coming out!
No time to post tonight about the interesting weekend I had. I'll try when I've got some spare time. This week is already hell and it's only Tuesday :L
No time to post tonight about the interesting weekend I had. I'll try when I've got some spare time. This week is already hell and it's only Tuesday :L
Sunday, February 22, 2004
***This post was from last week, and I accidentally posted it to the wrong blog so here it is-like you care!***
I don't know how much of this I can take anymore... I've had enough of the rug being pulled out from underneath me, of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel only for it to extinguish. Senior year is supposed to be fun, at least for most people I know it is.
Nothing is ever easy. Ever.
And maybe that's a good thing.
And maybe sometimes I couldn't care less.
I think if I was granted one wish, I'd know what I'd ask for: 1 month where everything went my way. 1 month, and that was it, where the sky was the limit if you could put a limit to things instead of the limit being the sky. I haven't been this bothered in a very long time. All the little things that don't bother you seem to congeal into a pool and come washing back to shore like a rogue wave.
Well screw them. I'm going to beat all of it down and come out on top. In the wise words of Pete Wrigley:
"Don't Tread On Pete."
I don't know how much of this I can take anymore... I've had enough of the rug being pulled out from underneath me, of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel only for it to extinguish. Senior year is supposed to be fun, at least for most people I know it is.
Nothing is ever easy. Ever.
And maybe that's a good thing.
And maybe sometimes I couldn't care less.
I think if I was granted one wish, I'd know what I'd ask for: 1 month where everything went my way. 1 month, and that was it, where the sky was the limit if you could put a limit to things instead of the limit being the sky. I haven't been this bothered in a very long time. All the little things that don't bother you seem to congeal into a pool and come washing back to shore like a rogue wave.
Well screw them. I'm going to beat all of it down and come out on top. In the wise words of Pete Wrigley:
"Don't Tread On Pete."
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
Props to Zach for reintroducing me to Googlism.com. Check out the best of the best for Pete!
pete is a real live childrens musical pirate who sails the seven seas
pete is our mascot
pete is five times a winner
pete is the same height as the matterhorn
pete is with the lord
pete is my idol
pete is the man
pete is enjoying the mistakes
pete is not a ragdoll ladies
pete is amazing
pete is a sexy bitch
pete is many things to many people
pete is not heavily involved in ego campaigning
pete is the only weathercaster working through the night to bring the viewers the latest and most accurate information
pete is packaged in robot mode
pete is here
pete is the most knowledgable person in the group
pete is mickey mouse's first and oldest continuing arch-enemy
pete is one more band that proves the expression is never more true than it is in music
pete is faced with the odds of his passing maths class reducing to 450 to one if he's late
pete is five times a winner
pete is a real live childrens musical pirate who sails the seven seas
pete is our mascot
pete is five times a winner
pete is the same height as the matterhorn
pete is with the lord
pete is my idol
pete is the man
pete is enjoying the mistakes
pete is not a ragdoll ladies
pete is amazing
pete is a sexy bitch
pete is many things to many people
pete is not heavily involved in ego campaigning
pete is the only weathercaster working through the night to bring the viewers the latest and most accurate information
pete is packaged in robot mode
pete is here
pete is the most knowledgable person in the group
pete is mickey mouse's first and oldest continuing arch-enemy
pete is one more band that proves the expression is never more true than it is in music
pete is faced with the odds of his passing maths class reducing to 450 to one if he's late
pete is five times a winner
Monday, February 16, 2004
Well yet another amazing Red House party! The Valentine's Day party was a success smash hit, and was enjoyed by all apparently! A great weekend with tons of drama as per usual. Looks like I'll be going down to Florida for Spring Break. Wahoo. This is going to be a rough week of class, so I'm getting right to it!
