Thursday, November 04, 2004

So yesterday I posted this away message after seeing Mike Klemens post a similar one:

"Do you still have me on your buddy list, check my away messages, but never say hi?!
Go for it! say helloooo!"

I always wonder, whenever I think of someone who I haven't spoken or seen in a long time, if that person ever thinks or wonders about me as well. The results were interesting. there were a few classes of people who responded.

A.) Online friends who I'd chatted with for some time and occasionally still catch up with. Thank you to all in this group who dropped me an IM. I wonder about you all and hope things are going well on your ends!

B.) People I never converse with anymore, but do wonder about when I see their screen name on my list. It's nice to see who still checks my away messages for

C.) People I have no desire ever to speak to again in my life. There was only one person in this class. A person from three years ago who I am glad every day that they're out of my life. They've not been on my list since that time, and why I would ever remain on their list is positively beyond me. Can you say "living in the past?"

It was an interesting experiment nonetheless. The road trip to Syracuse rocked. Got there around 3:30 Friday, got our stuff moved into Zach & Bekkah's. Took Jess for a tour around campus. It was kind of surreal to be back at SU. I enjoyed my 4 years, but I was definitely glad to get out. College is never what you expect it to be, and for me there was definitely too much I had not wanted it to be. A lot of first steps, and the last two years I never worked so hard in my life for those majors. I realized something that first few hours there. But that realization is not for your eyes :)

As rough as things are, I'm grateful for every step I've taken. Every mistake I've made. Every person I've met, even those who I never want a thing to do with again.

Every longlost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were just falling stars,
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms.
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you